Yes, it has been a long time… I have spent a ton of hours over the weekend, trying to get back into the mindset of blogging. I used to have a ton of ideas floating around my head, enough for dozens of entries at any given time. I just had to reach in and grab one to post. Now, I still have those dozens (if not more) ideas floating around, but my internal editor dismisses them as garbage even before I can start to get them on the screen. Damn my mind!
I did, however, log just about all my books into Goodreads. I still have all the paper backs that reside on the top shelf of my bookcase, and because they are WAY up there, I will come back to them at another time. Probably save that for a cleaning day, as there is most certainly a ton of dust up there too. As it sits right now, I have a bit more than 600 books logged in that I own. I am sure the paperback shelf has another 100 or so, and half of those are Cheryls. And being a mildly obsessive/compulsive, I also tossed them into a number of bookshelves as I scanned them in.
On other thoughts, I have really been contemplating getting back into writing. I have not written in many many months, and I feel I truly have stories to tell. Plus, I have been reading a bit and some of the books I have read have been true garbage. If THEY can get published with that drivel, I certainly can with a whole lot better stories. The only thing holding me back is my mind. Every time I start to think about writing, my mind says “You should have a job first!” Being unemployed sucks! Even though I actively look for work in my field, the market and economy still sucks. So, in turn, I dismiss the writing dream, and focus on earning a living.
On that front – work, that is – I believe I am going to open up my own shop again. I have seriously sent my resume off hundreds of times. I have even began sending it into the same firms for the second time. There are just so many unemployed architects out there, that my resume gets lost in the mess. I know I have superior skills and work ethics, but just getting into the interview to express them is the biggest hurdle. I can count on one hand, the number of interviews I have had since being unemployed. I know the work is starting to return, as i still talk with other architects, and I know I can cut into some of that work. I just need to really start marketing myself.
Now, if I can just balance looking for work ALONG with a bit of writing, I wont feel so horribly bad when I sit down to write something. I just need to convince myself that my writing may in fact be worth something to a publisher and it could in fact be what brings home the bacon in the household…
